Wednesday, January 30, 2013

A Random Update Followed With a Poem of Mine

I haven't really posted anything from what's going in my life. And most of you dear readers are probably wondering what happened to the real Haley! Well here are a few things:

I've been busy with preparing for the World Piano Competition for several months now. But here recently things have been getting a little more hectic due to the fact that the second audition is this Saturday. Exciting,  yet a little terrifying at the same time.

School has been another big thing for me. I'm planning on graduating in May/June and I'm going to take the SAT test in May. That has me busy with tying all of my 'loose ends' up. :)

Another huge thing that has effected my life a bit more than I would like, is health issues. A few little details on that subject....
Ever since December 4th I've been having problems with being able to eat and not feel sick. Most days I just eat enough to get by. I know that is not the smartest or wisest thing to do, but when you have hardly any appetite at all and you are just plain scared to just isn't my favorite thing right now.
Turns out after I had a HIDA scan it revealed that my gallbladder is barely working. That's a problem. I've done two gallbladder cleanses and each time I felt awful afterward. I've been laid up for about two months and due to the fact that I'm not eating I've lost some weight. That's OK. I did have weight to lose. Anyway, I'm not complaining and I'll get to that later.
I went to a gastrointestinal (GI) specialist earlier this afternoon. The doctor told me that my gallbladder is more than likely diseased and will need to be surgically removed. He joked with my mom and said we would plan the surgery unless she had another way of removing it. :P The appointment with the surgeon has not been set yet. Anyway, next Friday (February 8th) I have a gallbladder ultrasound in the morning and at 1:15 that afternoon, I will have a scope done. What will happen during the scope is I will be put to sleep and they will slip a small camera type thingy down my throat and into my body and take pictures of my gallbladder. What happens from there I don't know.
So if you wouldn't mind sending up a few prayers for me I would really appreciate it.

Now I don't want to sound like I'm complaining over my current situation/illness. Oh no. Not me. Yes, it does get tiring and old just having to sit a lot because I don't feel good most of the time, but the Lord is teaching me a ton through all of this. I'm learning patience. That's one of the first lessons the Lord brought to my mind when I asked Him what He was doing. A sure funny question to ask the Lord, but I was curious and desperate.
Don't ever underestimate the power of patience. Patience is a wonderous thing, but that's a whole other blog post. But yes, the Lord is teaching me patience, endurance, long-suffering, determination, and joy in suffering. Tracing rainbows through my rain. Yes, the Lord wants us to joy in our suffering. He gives us the strength we need every day to endure it if we only ask Him for it.
My word of encouragement to you is this:
If you are going through a hardship in your life at this time, look to the Lord for the strength you need. He will willingly give it. He wants you to rely on HIM. And Him only. Search the Scriptures. His promises to you are overflowing in that blessed book. Don't give up. Press on! This is for a season and the Lord will get you through it. He has a reason and a plan for everything. He allows things to happen and whether they are good or bad He will turn them for our good. (Romans 8:28)

Now, that I've rambled on long's a poem, more like a song that I wrote. I was feeling a bit down the other night. Here are a few more of my thoughts for you to read. I hope I haven't been too...long-winded. :)

Safe In Your Arms

When my fears threaten to seize
My heart in a cold clenching grasp
I know You are watching over me
When my mind fills up with doubt
And I can’t seem to take control
I know You are within and without

So please take me in Your arms
Hold me close and don’t let go
Reassure me I’m safe from all harm
Oh, Lord Jesus, You’re my Father
I’ve no reason to doubt You
Safe in Your arms, You love like no other

As I plead and cry to You
Satan tries to discourage me
And convince me I’m not getting through
But through the clouds of my storm
Your loving voice falls on my ear
And tells me, “Come, you’re tired and worn.”

So please take me in Your arms
Hold me close and don’t let go
Your love is greater than the world’s charms
Lord, I trust You completely
My life is safe in Your hands
I bask in the knowledge that You love me

Your love dispels all my fears
And brings me to tears of sheer joy
For I know I’m loved by One who cares
Lord, I can never recount
All the blessings You’ve given me
I can never repay this amount

Oh, Jesus, Friend and Savior
Great and Mighty is Your name
You are the ultimate love giver
You are always here for me
I’ve no cause to doubt at all
I’m safe in Your arms for eternity

Oh, Jesus, I’m safe in Your arms.


  1. Praying!
    I hope you don't mind, but I've included you in a prayer update over at my blog:

    1. Thank you, Jonny!
      No, not at all! That is so very kind of you. :)
      Thank you!


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